Tuesday, February 21, 2012


If you can't tell by the subject, I'm exasperated

(And xkcd has given me a great way to think about big long exasperated sighs)

So here's the thing. I've gained weight. Again. I weighed myself a few weeks ago and was horrified by the number I saw there. This morning I weighed myself thinking surely with how I've been working out a bit more and trying to be more intuitive about my eating (ie, only eating when I'm hungry, not always cleaning my plate, etc.), I will be down at least from where I was a few weeks ago.

9 pound gain.


NINE POUNDS higher than that number that horrified me a few weeks ago.

What is WRONG with me?

I was thinking about it on my way to work and the last time I weighed what I do right now was in 2003. I am just at a loss. I told Jason and he commiserated with me and said he was sorry because he knows I've been working so hard.

The moral of the story that I'm getting from all of this is that the only possible way for me to lose weight is to be absolutely perfect. No, actually, it seems that the only way for me to not GAIN weight is to be absolutely perfect. We're not even talking about losing anymore. I need to stop this weight gain train right this second. I don't know if this is a result of getting older or what, but I'm just all around horrified.

Not to mention really, really uncomfortable in my skin.

Also, I've been nursing a low-lying cold for a couple of weeks now that won't make its way through my system, but just hangs around, making me feel kind of yucky, and making me have kind of a cough and sore throat. I didn't go to Masters last week or this week because of the cough, though last week I did get to one strength training class and one swimming session. Then my throat hurt even more for the rest of the day. It also makes me really, really tired. Seriously, cold, just do your thing and move on, or go away!


Joe and Joanne said...

I'm so sorry Kelly. I agree - it's so strange that you're working so hard and it's having the opposite effect it should.

I know you've heard it before, but muscle weights more than fat and you've been working your muscles hard. Maybe not 9 lbs of muscle worth, but maybe? Either way, have you ever thought about NOT weighting yourself and just going by how you feel / look in a mirror? We women can't rely on scales as truth-tellers as much as men can. We retain water. Water weights A LOT! Anyway, it might give you a little more encouragement through the process which is like GOLD to anyone trying to obtain a goal.

Thoughts and prayers your way that your cold leaves soon too!

Kelly said...

Joanne, thanks for the thoughts, but this is definitely more than just the muscle weighs more than fat phenomenon. I don't weigh myself that often, relying mainly on how my clothes fit and how I feel. But my clothes are all tight and I feel lehargic and uncomfortable, so I've weighed myself a couple of times in the last month or so to get an idea. I'm hoping I can put a stop to this.

Joe and Joanne said...

I hope so too, Kelly. I'll be thinking about you!