Tuesday, August 25, 2015

Worked Out Again

Worked out 2 days in a row.  I know, I'm impressed with me too.  Today I'm feeling yesterday's workout in my inner thighs, which means I'm just kind of dropping the last few inches into my chair.

Yesterday's food plan got torpedoed by Jason who bought home some ice cream to celebrate something, but I know his heart was in the right place so I couldn't be mad.  But up until then, I was stellar.  Today I'm on target for my food (and there will be no ice cream tonight).

Monday, August 24, 2015

Worked Out

I got up early this morning and worked out for the first time in a very long time.  My shoulder was a little sore afterward and I am so weak.  So weak.  I used to be strong and now I am weak.

But I can get strong again!

I've decided that a having a slightly sore shoulder is just part of my reality now and I need to work around it rather than let it keep stopping me from doing the things I need to do to feel healthy.

I had a smoothie for breakfast and am focused on low-carbing it.  Today is Day One!

Monday, June 08, 2015

Blah blah blah

Here we are again, with no progress except for me continuing to feel bad about how my body looks.  So I'm working on it, and today I am SORE.

First, though.  I had a physical a few weeks ago.  I really like my doctor because we have actual conversations about what's going on with me.  A couple of days after my appointment, she left a message for me about a medical weight loss program at a local hospital.  She has another patient who was seemingly doing all the right things and wasn't losing weight, but has had success with this program. I thought that sounded promising.

I did some research into the program and discovered that if you want to lose more than 35 pounds, the program starts with 10 weeks of 2 liquid meals per day plus a calorically-balanced dinner.  If they had said "a sensible dinner", I would have guessed the doctor in charge used to work for Slim Fast.

You know, I'm all for taking some mildly extreme actions, such as cutting out certain categories of foods for a limited time, but 10 weeks of 2 liquid meals doesn't sound like a recipe for long-term success to me.  Besides, I've done the liquid diet thing.  I was 15, I had jaw surgery, and my mouth was wired shut for 4 1/2 weeks.  It was --- not pleasant.  Also, it was about 3 years before I could even think about drinking any sort of chocolate-flavored drink without gagging since I mainly subsisted on chocolate Ensure and chocolate Carnation Instant Breakfast because all of the other flavors tasted terrible*.

So in the name of being healthy and not an insane person on a liquid diet, I'm starting (again) to work on my activity level and my food.  Saturday Jason and I went to the gym to pump some iron.  Then we did some house and garden maintenance, of which mine consisted of taking 8 bags of mulch, dumping them into a wheelbarrow, and spreading them around our garden beds (which look so pretty!). 

Maybe doing that on the same day as starting strength training again wasn't the best idea, since Jason and I have been hobbling around the house for the last 2 days.  But we feel accomplished!

*The chocolate wasn't great either, but it was tolerable.

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Another Day One

I was so optimistic about those resolutions, but then we traveled and Jason started making sourdough bread regularly, and really I'm just full of excuses.  Also, there are many feet of snow on the ground.  All that inspires me to do is huddle inside with hot chocolate and knitting.

The big excuse is, I have lost my drive when it comes to all of this healthy living.  It's been gone for awhile and I keep trying unsuccessfully to get it back.  When I went to see a weight loss specialist a little more than a year ago he told me that based on my history of weight loss and gain since I was, oh, 13, and the high rate of morbid obesity in my family, he thought maybe we could get me to lose 30 pounds, but probably not more than that.  This is a guy who makes money telling people if they follow his program and buy his stuff, they will loss ALL the weight.  I told him right off the bat I want to lose 50-60 pounds (which I did before), and he told me 30 was realistic.

Which makes me think, why even bother trying so hard?  Let's just eat all the yummy unhealthy foods and sit on our bums if the end result of severely monitoring everything that goes into my mouth and working out almost every day is that I'm still fat.

I know, not a very constructive attitude.  But that's where I am.

On the plus side, I went for acupuncture for the first time a little more than a week ago.  I think it helped my shoulder a bit, and I know for a fact that it helped some other aches and pains I've been having so I'm willing to keep trying with the shoulder.  Jason warned me a couple of weeks ago not to put all of my eggs in the acupuncture basket and I pointed out to him that this is really my last resort.  After this, my option is to talk to an orthopedic surgeon and figure out if he or she can do anything for me via surgery.  I really don't want surgery.

Today is the first day of Lent, so I've decided to start again with the healthy goals.  I replaced my broken Fitbit so I can monitor my steps again, and I'm cutting out sugar, grains and Diet Coke.  So far I have an A+ for the day, so, go me.