I gave myself June before I decided I definitely needed help. In June I participated in the June Challenge, as you all know. I stuck to the food plan (low-carb) 5 or 6 out of 7 days per week and spent those 4 weeks doing a nice mix of cardio and strength training. I felt good, physically, and thought, surely I will see improvement either via the scale or measuring tape.
When all was said and done, no improvement. My clothes fit the same. My body composition isn't changing and I'm not losing weight.
Jason sometimes complains about how many vegetables we eat. A lot of my friends make comments to me about what an inspiration I am with my diligent workouts. But the truth is, I haven't seen the scale or the measuring tape go anywhere but up for a couple of years now. I eat low-carb because I honestly feel better eating this way, not because I'm trying to lose weight quick. I work out because it helps my mental well-being. Sometimes, though, I wish I would see some physical results for all my hard work and it can be really (really, really) discouraging when I don't.
Jason started saying to me several months ago that maybe I should go see an endocrinologist or similar because no matter how sedentary my job is, something's just not right. After my June experiment, I started looking into getting help.
I know I'll never be skinny. I know I'll never be "Normal" on the BMI because of how I'm built. I don't want to be skinny or normal, I just want to feel comfortable in my own skin again.
So this week, I went to see a doctor. I did some research and found someone who is sympathetic to low-carb, and whose entire ethos, according to his website, is something I can get on board with. He sat with me for a half hour and we talked about my background, my parents and their backgrounds and health, the things I've done in the past, what brought me to him. I liked him a lot and we had a good repoire.
I'm not so sure about what I think he might be recommending. I'm getting blood work done and meeting with his weight-loss specialist next week, and I already have several (skepticism-laden) questions for her. But, as Jason pointed out, nothing I've done so far has been working, so I might as well give this a whirl, right?